9All right, I’m exaggerating a tad. This is not a life-or-death post by any means… but I do need some advice, my friends.
The special time of year is almost upon us. If tradition is to be followed, I go, “Oh look, space_wrapped is back!” and then I cruise the prompts, act like it’s not serious or necessary to my sanity, find a prompt I HAVE TO WRITE, and then for the next 90 days of my life become entrenched in the big, serious deal that is this challenge. (And believe it or not, it’s not even a K/S/M-driven challenge!)
It’s in no way a bad thing. To the contrary, some amazing stories have happened because of space_wrapped. For three consecutive years I feel like I set myself a goal do something beyond my norm in writing (or my norm at that time) and achieved it. And to date, I haven’t regretted those years of participation.
But there’s always the doubt creeping in: what if it’s this year that I fail? What if I can’t do it, or can’t do it better than I have done in the past? What if I lack something – time, creativity, willpower – and I end up disappointing a lot of people, not just myself?
I don’t know. My muse hasn’t been reliable as of late. I work like I am allowed no life outside of work. Finally, given the fact there aren’t any prompts to browse and choose from this year, I don’t have faith there’s a good story out there waiting for me to write it, or that I will find it/think of it.
I guess it all really boils down to one question:
To space_wrapped, or not to space_wrapped?
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- So It Begins – from November 20, 2012
I might be borrowing some of yours then! Be warned!
It sounds like your hesitance comes more from the possibility of failure. That risk always exists and it you’ve over come it each year. I doubt this year will be different but if it is, that’s okay too. You tried and, more than likely, enjoyed the journey. Since your reluctance seems to come from that rather than, say, boredom or unenjoyment, I say go for it.
I think you already know this is why I like you so much. Your logical thinking makes perfect sense to me!
I think kaomi has it right– I distinctly remember some panicked flailing every year I’ve known you– 2+!– and you’ve always come through it with flying colors. :)
Yay, a gif! And, yup, there is always panicked flailing. Maybe that is a prerequisite of signing up for a challenge, that you have to be prepared to panic at some point? :/
Do iiiiit! (please.)
LOL, I see your vote is very to the point! :D (and thank you)
Stealing a line from Jim in Reboot Trek 09 movie “do it! do it! do it!” it will be fine and your muse may take you down a new path but the black magic trail you are on right now has worked out quite well, at least from a readers POV.