I’m starting to have doubts about my bjt_bigbang fic. Is this normal? I was so excited in the beginning! Now it seems like a waste of time, because it might not even be entertaining enough once it’s done. You know, some really great tales have come out of the STBB this year, and it makes me wonder if what I’m doing will be a poor second in comparison.

I know, I know! How can I compare when they are separate fandoms? Don’t ask me. I don’t know! My brain just does.

Summary is due Dec. 1st, technically only three weeks away. Then the rough draft is due Jan. 1st.

I think RL is interfering with my creative process. I feel much too tired as of late to think about writing; and if I do think about it, I feel the painful count-down of my meager free time. I’m supposed to feel that my time is well-spent, you know?

Oh well. When it rains, it pours. i.e. The busy season always coincides with personal goals. How absolutely aggravating!

Anyway, yes, I feel a bit stuck in the mud… stuck and lacking handholds with which to pull myself out!

(On a happier note, I am excited that I can finally post Cookies and Cakes Oh My! on Dec. 3rd. At least something was finished!)

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