21So I warned you all I would be whining…
I write and I get stuck. I have so much love for the episode Space Seed, but bringing Khan into the Reboot universe is proving quite a challenge. Every time I think okay, Khan is here and now McCoy will– But no. McCoy is not the same. Kirk is not the same. In particular, we have a tyrant boarding the ship and facing a younger crew that has already had some heinous experiences, from the destruction of Vulcan and friends/colleagues to the near-destruction of Earth. We have Reaper!McCoy with a heavy past, secrets, and too much knowledge; Jim almost in emotional debilitation from his own dark past; John Grimm who knows something of what it is to be Khan; and lastly Khan himself, a ruthless man who wants ultimate control.
This could easily turn dark, you know?
The potential and/or dynamics are breaking my brain.
So I’m making a rather desperate plea for support. I can do this, right?
Related Posts:
- Birthday Post – from May 3, 2011
- Of Sacraments and War – Posting Date – from April 29, 2011
- Of Sacraments and War – Epilogue – from April 28, 2011
- Reaper vs Khan Countdown – from April 29, 2011
- PODFIC HAS ARRIVED! – from March 15, 2014
You *can* do this! And, I think it will turn out awesome! Of course, I see the AOS Jim Kirk being a whole less likely than his TOS counterpart to give Khan as much leeway. Because, as you said, he’s already been through such devastation and loss and what he has he must hold on more tightly to and be even more protective of. But, that’s just my two cents.
Oh yes, I have already anticipated Jim’s… issues with Khan, and they are potentially nasty enormous ones. I feel like I’m tip-toeing through an emotional mindfield between Bones and Jim. I know Khan is going to get his ass handed to him, but I’m afraid of what it is going to cost our boys in the end. Does that make sense?
you mean something like Jim feeling betrayed by Bones because he hided his past? anyway I think you’ll do something amazing.. the challenge is big, but you’re too good to not make something wonderful out of this :)
I don’t know if this is going to become a reveal!fic or not for Reaper. But I do appreciate your confidence in me! :)
That makes sense. Absolutely. I just have faith that Jim’s love and trust for Bones can overcome the reveal. I know you’ll be able to navigate that mine field.
Er… I wasn’t talking about a reveal at all. >_< I don't know if there is going to be one or not. I meant Jim's personal issues. Don't worry, it'll make sense (hopefully) when you are reading it.
So he knows Bones is Reaper? I know. I know I should wait. Let you write it first. Just love the premise and can’t wait to see how it turns out! *shakes pom poms*
Nobody knows Bones is Reaper but Bones. And Bones may want to keep it that way. He may have to do something *bad* to keep it that way. O.o No, no. Okay, let’s not think about that. Thank you for your cheering, WN! For you, I will attempt to keep Kirk alive. ;)
Wait. attempt to keep Kirk alive? Oh, no you don’t! You can’t toss a bombshell like that out there and then run away! *tosses pom-poms aside and picks up whip* Get to writing! ;-)
Oh well, there goes the gentle cheering… :D I swear, ma’am, I am writing! And I won’t kill Jimmy, or Spock, or the oblivious ensign in the corner – Wait, no, Khan! Not the – Never mind. That poor ensign.
You can do this, definitely. And don’t worry about making it sort of dark. If you don’t want it over saturated with darkness then just have dark moments with light moments mixed in. Try to find a balance and everything will work out. Though I am really looking forward to Reaper!McCoy kicking ass.
Thank you. :) I am trying my best to push forward. I am ready to introduce Jim’s perspective in this, but I… don’t feel him well enough, which bothers me. It comes out as blah blahhh blah. :/ Kind of weird, but I imagine myself switching off the lights to freakin’ channel Jim Kirk. I’m that desperate.
What I usually do is put myself behind the eyes of the character. What have they lived through, how do they react, where did they come from? Once you start to have a feel for them it’s much easier to picture what they’ll do next.
Jim has had to live by instinct, sometimes, so I know his instincts are hedging towards suspicion… but, maybe there’s a bit of willful blindness, too, because he trusts Bones?
But he also knows Bones will do what ever he needs to to save a life. That doesn’t mean the guy is safe.
…That’s actually a bit of interesting conflict there. Neither side wanting to do anything to the new patient. Kirk because he doesn’t want to upset Bones and his “saving lives” credo, John because he doesn’t want to show who he really is.
There is so much potential conflict, it makes my head spin. :) I thank you for your good advice. I am going to make a playlist for Jim’s “conflicts” and see if that helps me focus.
There is no can, bb, you MUST do this. It is your best destiny, because without it my life will be bereft, and that is unacceptable. :) But IKR? When I was writing Rebootverse for STBB last year, I thought it would be fairly easy to work Q into a TOS-esque atmosphere, and I kept hitting a brick wall going but Kirk wouldn’t DO (or SAY) that, wth?, and finally realized that it was writing a whole difference set of actions and reactions. You so can do it. *cheers you on* doitdoitdoitdoitdoit
You pulled that STBB off so well, you made it look easy. Normally I can write Rebootverse Jim without trouble but for some reason this particular ‘verse is different. Honestly I think it has something to do with Bones being, well, not a true Bones – and that affects Jim’s predictability, if you know what I mean. Geez, I didn’t realize until now just how much of a good thing is that Kirk and McCoy are friends. I solemnly promise that I will try to smash through this brick wall of mine. :)
If that’s true then maybe Jim has an inkling that Bones is hiding something, or that not everything about him is true. Maybe that will help you figure out this Jim.
Oh he does. >_< I turned out the lights in my room, sat in a corner, put my headphones on and let Jim wallow and think-y think and do whatever he wanted. It helped, though I'm tad creeped out on how he insists on coming through.